I never really considered having trust issues for girls but after everything I've been through I kind of do now

I don't know what happened between high school and college but a lot of girls standards got way harder to fulfill and me being a virgin did knock me down to q a lot even with my own ex-girlfriend who was also a virgin

This does make me bitter and Confused as I worked on my confidence for years and sometimes I still feel confident but given that I'm still a virgin I doubt it matters and I doubt that it will matter when it comes down to the sex part because it's not like the girl is going to be excited no matter how confident you are as a virgin

Also given how much I've been made fun of by both men and women I don't trust a girl to take my virginity anymore because it just seems like too much of an emotional hassle

Like if I am a virgin I do expect you to take the lead and show me something but so many girls have stated that they just don't want to do it and so many people keep telling me not to mention it but it kind of proves my point on how messed up Society is

As a man I'm expected to be understanding of women and not slip shame butt when I'm needing help sexually from a woman and I expect you to be understanding but oh, she can completely for go all of it and reject me because I haven't shove my dick inside another woman yet

I had a semester at a private college that kind of cemented these ideas in my head because I was trying so hard and I just gave up

I don't know if I'm confident now or not because I constantly lost but I put in so much work and I feel like that's doing good this credit to all the work I put in

And it doesn't make me trust women because I've had too many instances where something stupid became a turn off like my virginity

I grew up learning about women and trying to respect them and I know that doesn't owe me anything but I hate the fact that I am struggling so hard and the guys who do not respect women at all are winning