I need your advice on what to do. The whole "relationship" was toxic from the start and he coerced me based on my financial situation. He said he would support me financially and made it seem like he was rich. He did end up paying me overall $10000 and we were "together" for 8 months basically before I stopped going back to him. It was very on and off.

I used to be HV or Atleast acting like it until I met him. I started compromising on my values because he was the first man to bring up the topic of porn and how it's a poison on society and I thought that was so rare. That was mistake number one. I developed a scarcity mindset and started overlooking his obvious weirdness and red flags.

He was my first sexual experience consensually, but it was coerced basically because I wasn't ready for it and just gave in to his guilt tripping about blue balls.

He never took my V card Atleast because I told him not to. So we just did everything else.

One day I was mad at him about something. He just wanted sex. I told myself I wouldn't give in until the thing I was mad about was resolved. I ended up giving in because I felt I didn't have the right to say no to someone who was financially supporting me and I also didn't want him to be angry or frustrated because I was that trauma bonded to him. While the act was happening i started crying and he obviously noticed, I mean how do you not notice that someone's crying while you're fucking their ass. He just continued and after cumming I really start sobbing loudly. He says he thought we were role playing (I had told him a couple weeks prior that I want him to take charge and do what he wants with me and we discussed rape fantasy). Afterwards he was clearly uncomfortable and asked if I was hurt during it. I said no.

Next day he texted me saying he felt weird about what happened and i said I did too. He said we shouldn't do anything sexual for a while.

Was I raped? I'm having a hard time understanding what to think. His reaction afterwards seems to indicate that rape wasn't his intention. I was gonna give in to sex anyways, just not at that moment. I felt raped though. Because I felt I couldn't say no. I wasn't in control of the situation. Is this something to take to the police?