AWALT

Been really frustrated with my girlfriend lately. Been together for 4 years. We have had ups and downs in our sex life, (usually me wanting more than I'm getting) but it's currently at an all time low. For the past six months or so, we have only had sex for 1 maybe 2 times a month. I'm too young to be in a sexless relationship. The worst part is, lately, we have been making "deals". (I know, not good). I'll have to do some kind of thing for her, then she will have sex with me, if she doesn't double cross me, which is often. I know the deal making is not good. And now I'm really frustrated, feeling rejected, and insecure. It's really making me want to leave her. I love her so much but the rejection is getting to me. I don't want to have to make deals so she will go through the chore of having sex with me. I want her to want me, to maybe innitiate sometimes. So tonight I made a fake facebook, and set up a tinder account. Without a face pic. Just to check out single ladies on there. After about 5 minutes of that I felt sick to my stomache, and deleted all that. Still feels bad, because I love my girlfriend. I've tried to talk to her about it, and she says she never liked sex that much. I don't feel like that's true because she enjoys it everytime we do do it. And we used to have a great sex life. And when we do, I'm totally content, and totally in love. Feels bad man.