The truth is, i am awake. I actively seek out truth and try to implement it into my life.

Do i make (sometimes serious) mistakes? Yes absolutely, especially if i’m caught up in the heat of the moment and i let my emotions take over.

But i also try to learn from my mistakes. I constantly analyze the situation and figure out the variables at play, so i can improve myself and avoid the same mistakes as before. I try to apply this to every aspect of my life.

In general, this isn’t easy, and when a passionate romance gets thrown in my path, it can be all but impossible.

There is a correct state of consciousness which i’ve had glimpses of. I’ve known of its existence for almost 6 years and it has been a slow hard struggle to adjust every aspect of my ego to be in accordance with such truths.

As consciousness starts to adjust you discover many new truths that you didn’t even know existed.

Pretty soon you realize just how incorrectly you have actually been living, and you start to adjust your behavior by doing things like waking up before the sun rises, eating healthy, flossing daily, limiting tv, reading more, exercising, meditating, working hard, not shirking your responsibilities, being kind to people even when you aren’t in the mood, going to bed early, etc.

And the crazy thing is you start to LOVE doing it- you’ll try to find more and more positive adjustments you can make anywhere in your life.

During every relationship i’ve had in the past 6 years, my transcendence has become side-barred, sacrificed, put on hold, compromised, because enlightenment requires constant vigilance, endless energy, and total focus.

The male drive to provide for and protect the woman you love is fundamentally engrained in our DNA. Love is the ultimate drug. It blinds you and your main goal becomes doing everything possible to keep it, even if it means sacrificing personal aspirations.

This alone is bitter enough, but when you realize that a woman is incapable of comprehending such realities? When you realize that women are designed by nature to be calculating, cruel, manipulating, selfish creatures in a wrapper tailer made to be irresistible in every way to the male sex? That no matter how great you are or how much money you have or how many sacrifices you make for her, she will never be capable of loving you the way you love her?

It’s enough to make you GYOW.