I have been away from this place for a long time now. It seems like so long ago, shut away behind all the pretend bullshit. Once again I remember how it felt the first time when the world lost all its color. I remember why.I remember what made me act the way I did. I remember the sadness, the pain, the urge to act and take revenge on those who caused it. I remember why I became the person I was supposed resent. I remember why I always felt all alone even in crowds of people.I remember why it feels like my soul is shredded and irredeemable. I remember why I wanted to change, and I remember why I didn’t do it. I remember my friends who aren’t here anymore and I remember why they are gone. And for that reason I will always remember why I left.

R.I.P. Jacob I will always remember you even though I left.