MRP/TRP is a long ass journey. Especially if you are married, with kids, older, whatever.

So here is what happens. You find TRP- begin implementing, see instant success, then hit a wall. Like any new way of living, hobby, task, we hit walls. Sometimes HARD.

That is why personal development, change, mindset shifts, are all LONG TERM battles.

Take me for example. I have about 40 pounds of extra weight, diagnosed with depression, anxiety, and high blood pressure. None of that will change overnight. But after working hard for 8ish months, I am now much stronger, blood pressure is down a tick, anxiety/depression is manageable most days. Progress.

Internally it takes time to break habits, change mindset, and learn. Part of the hitting the wall for me is the realization that I just am not too much of a fan of my wife. When I am doing well- following the plan, and maintaining frame- she turns into an okay wife. Pretty good. So I know that the harder I work, the better a wife she will be. But it takes time.

This past year, I did not make quite as much money as I wanted to. Which meant no year end bonus. That took a damper on my spirit. Hit a hard wall there. It takes time. Year to year. Day to day. To increase my financial value and worth.

I am coming up on my 11 year anniversary. By no means am I happy or living my best life possible.

But. The big but. In spite of hitting the wall. Feeling some doldrums off and on the past few months. I KNOW that my maturity, value, and strength are increasing. I am on an upward trajectory. Hitting my prime. That is a fantastic feeling.

I know that no matter what happens in my life- I am consistently increasing my value. I am tougher, stronger, and in control.

This all takes time. Habits die hard. Relationships change slowly. Internal struggles change slowly. Learning to trust who you are changes slowly.

But the world is my fucking oyster bitches.