I just grasped/realized the fact that most guys have someone they loved and will always love/can't get over in their heart. This is a huge problem for me. Most people get into a new dating scenario with a fresh heart, fresh mindset, thinking it's a fresh start but in fact, that person has someone he loves that you probably can't replace or will just be a side or temporary or one of many. I have this scenario /love map in my mind that the guy who is my prince charming will only love me and that I am that special girl. But it seems that that cannot be trusted. Someone as young as their late teens to early 20's could all have someone in their heart already. There are people who unknowingly married someone who loves someone else. Are they okay with it?

This is doing something to me. I don't want to be their second, their side, their one of many, the not special. I don't trust again. I might not love again. sorry

I am rambling hope this makes sense. Would love to hear your feedback