Summary: I enjoy writing about masculinity. This isn’t a step by step guide that will lead to the land of 1,000 virgins. It is me writing about masculinity. It includes ways to practice mindfulness and brings up how evolutionary psychology can help us on our masculine journey. The end is me freewriting and an explanation of my words. If anyone else likes writing like this please share. I like reading passionate masculine writing. The stuff that says Man up and feel the power of the balls between your legs!

I have been on my on masculine journey for over a year now. It has gone from trying to get laid to continuously striving to get closer to my natural masculinity. In order to do this we must first look back at our ancestors. Since we have no good examples in our modern world of what it was like to be a real man in the wild we must use our imagination. Through contemplation many things will start to make sense. Knowing and realizing the natural instincts we possess we can begin to come closer to our potential as men in the modern world. It is important to note that I have not achieve a peak state but I do a lot more than most people.
English words that I think encapsulate masculinity: focus, aware, drive, influence, intelligence, innovation, inventive, creativity, tough, calm, ruthless, playful, powerful.

How to practice mindfulness, meditation, awareness: Awareness and focus must be practiced at all times. In every waking moment become aware of everything surrounding you. Slow your breath like a hunter in the wild. Smell the air, taste your mouth, feel your breath, feel the wind, hear the birds, hear your breath. Control it to silence it to make yourself silent. This should be carried into your workout with you. Workout with a calm intensity harnessing power from your breath. Remain aware of the sensation in your muscles, remain aware of the feeling of your breath. Try with everything in your will to control your breathing. Sometimes this can be harder than the physical task you are doing. Remember to never give up, never stop trying, tirelessly moving forward with each new heartbeat. Forget the past but remember the lessons. When working out you sometimes find yourself thinking about how much you have done this week or how much you did in the last rep making you think it's okay to give less on the next one. You will find your mind stops you before your body is about to get exhausted. Overpower this urge and give 100%. Remain calm in the heat of the moment. Now that you have been practicing breathing and have done so in the most excruciating moments you will find peace in unpleasant moments and even more peace in peaceful ones. When fighting, rock climbing, fucking, mediating, hell even writing a comment on reddit. Give this moment 100%. Do the mental work to stay focused. I met a boxer the other night whose focus was one to strive for. When he talked he never once blinked an eye. Unflinching, tireless focus. The warrior must be focused, and be in the moment because he never knows when will be his last. He must stay focused to watch the movement of his opponent and take the fleeting opportunity to strike the fatal blow. He kills outta love, for his family and the protection of his kin. The man who dies, dies with peace in his heart, he too was a warrior and knew from the start that death was a possibility as life can not be lived without. I wish to be present in that moment, to feel my heart give out. I will not give up until the end.

Freewriting: Morning rises and the mist clears. The sun is shining and my mission reappears. I set forth on this journey to a better land. I set foot in front of toe to make the journey as planned. Many days have passed me and none have been this clear. A serenity i've never experienced, a man I have appeared, I go out into the world and lead my lost brothers home together we continue thru darkness and from foe.

From soul to soul I share it all, from world to world I give the call of the wild, to the boys who are lost, a call to the the men who have seen the cross for being a man and calling out calls of manly intentions and “misguided” bravado. I give it no attention, my time here is limited, I give it no thought for my peace is more important, let my words hold meaning and my touch be rough I pay her no attention for she is lost and weak. I have tried to make the best but the worst is yet to come. I don't expect sunshine and rainbows, I expect a brutal cold. I don't want an easy life I'd rather have a challenge. I don't want to have a good girl, Id much rather have a heroine, A girl who is evil and cruel to her deepth, a real evil spirit to touch my darkest loves. So one I can play games with the real rough stuff that I love. One that can be forced to make my loving strong. Tomorrow I will not let the world bring me down. I shall reign free from the judgment and where my own shiny crown. A king of my own world, you are in my attention now. If i don't kill you, your lucky because your luck may run out. Someday I will drop you on the floor like a child, but you need to break her heart to break the boundage you will feel it in your heart when you get rid of the training wheel, when you shed yourself of the tyranny of a godforsaken child one that is not worth of even the smallest of loves, one that is no longer worthy, from denying me my love. From giving me what I want this child has too much power, I want my power back, I will take my crown, I will conquer this mountain I will make it to the land, I will show you, I am god, king of the newer lands. My life has to be this way there is no other way out the only way the world will change is if i continue one step at a time, so I write to change the world, I write to change myself, I write to make a memory of a time when I was in doubt, when I didn't know my holiness when I forgot about my crown I let princesses and prince shame me to the ground. I will no longer care about the thorns on the ground it is a life worth living, it is an adventure now. But i do not crave to be in the city, I hear the wild call me now, to be again with nature. To be one with my inner child. To be a boy untouched by the attacks of the crowd.

Explanation This poem will be hard to understand at face value but it is an expression of the masculine problem I and many other are facing in our society. It begins with a call out to men who are suffering from the same kinds of oppression and how what we have been told is manly misleading. Then it talks of a girl, a modern girl that is weak, has never lifted a finger, and is all trumped up with unprecedented power that feminism has brought. It expresses my desire for a real women, a wild beast that can swing from tree to tree and conquer mountains along side me. Then it goes on about how I have relinquished the suppression of masculine traits. I stopped feeling guilty for being promiscuous and dominating. I stopped letting them make me feel bad for being a man. It even goes as deep as wanting to live in the wild but not doing so because society would shame you for being a bum. They have told us we are worthless men if we don’t work and make money. I’m a bearded man who would rather live in communion with brothers and sister in the wild then work 9-5. If that's not you fine by me, but don’t think you're better than me.

This last one describes the ex girlfriend that lead me to the red pill but it was an important moment when I realized I need to break free from the bondage of pussy. They lead you to believe you are in control but your ego blinds you from the truth. They have control over you because your brain is working against you to get high off the sex and they do everything to keep you comfortable and it makes you weak.

Life needs to change, so i spend this time here with these words to describe my situation. I can only thru contemplation continue to grow through this contemporary corruption. The problem is this masculinity is at risk and my life needs to become more important. Your health needs to be your #1 goal and you need to hammer down and focus. All of your strength on this problem to solve the manly problem you are encountering. You need to free yourself from this leach, this blood sucking cunt. She is toxic to your growth. It is not her fault really, she was not raised right, her mom needs to be put on a leash, but on society has let them run rampant, and now I must become repulsed by her cat lady behavior that is making you a bitch. It is your fault you are acting like a bitch, you have fallen into the tarp to make yourself unhealthy. All you have to do is get up and continue. Just drink water and eat healthy. Avoid the weed for a couple of days to clear your head. The dullness of life will leave you stronger and unmovable. You can Make a little money doing what you do then you can continue your life. By changing tomorrow you will only leave that till then. YOu can no longer look over this girl she has shown time and time again. I must make a plan to leave her and never see her again. Bring your close home. Block her number and say you need to focus for a few days. Leave her with a soft next to keep things pleasant. Hopefully she will learn and change and become a better person for it. You being serious about self improvment will show her what to do.

Conclusion: Practice mindfulness in every moment of everyday. Don't let society suppress your masculinity. Be free