Lately I've been feeling really numb. I used to distract myself with games and TV. Just not worry about where my life was going and while I don't remember being happy about it, I don't remember feeling numb as I do now.

Now I've got my diet planned out and a proper sleep schedule which I've maintained for weeks now. I'm also working out consistently. Have minimized gameing and watching TV. But I feel so dead and numb about it. I'm about to start UNI and I was so excited months back but now I don't care at all.

Because of this I'm falling back to my old habits. I don't want to but idk. Sometimes I think I'm just thinking too much and being a bitch about it. Sometimes I think it won't be always like this and it's just a phase.

I think I'm an attractive person, 6 feet, long hair, fit and all that. I get attention from time to time but that only gives me an ego boost. I've never had a relationship or gotten sexual with a girl. And thinking back I definitely had chances but I seemed to always screw it up.

Im thinking about maybe getting a therapist but theyre probably really expensive and I just don't have that kind of money right now. I don't think I've ever written something on Reddit before and I'm probably gonna get downvoted to hell for this but I guess I'm just hoping someone has gone through this and they've got some advice on it.