In order to be more realistic about things, I feel really numb in social interactions. Starting to see things in this completely biological way and I've gotten indications my vibe is off.

Almost had the cops called on me (or at least that was the next step) at this grocery store on 2 beers for staring at one thing with my posture up and alpha body language and being dead silent. Looking like a corpse

People often try to get away from me, or will do loud aggressive coughs around me like I'm making them sick or uncomfortable. Or in the middle of talking

Make eye contact with girls even have them smile and dig me it's like as soon as I start talking they just caught a flu or some shit. Especially after a few drinks

Not saying it always happens, but man it feels strange because all I'm really trying to do is have some self respect and not be someone to be fucked with. A lot of resentment over the years but yadda yadda everyone's got their problems.

Also somewhat bitter about not getting the poon and barely having friends

Don't want to be beta or taken advantage of anymore, but now I don't know how to be. Is this just a stage in becoming socially aware, or am I serial killer in the making?

Should note, this is a recent problem, and I came off much more alpha months ago despite having a worse lifestyle where all I though about was pussy