I will be honest and say my parents have a horrible dynamic. I don't learn anything from them and am always seeing them fight and not be supportive. Today I got hit with a "Why can't you be normal" from my mom because I woke up today feeling down and was trying to hype myself out for a workout due to lack of energy. Honestly I brushed it off, but those words still stay ingrained in me. I have been slacking on my college courses and currently am not working due to corona. I don't have a real motivation to be successful and I believe its due to my parents forgetting about me and never supporting me. They always are doing things they want that don't financially even benefit the family. My brother and I are the only ones that work in our family due to my dad being a cancer survivor who can't work anymore and my mom who suffered an injury at work. Mom is very bipolar and dad has never given me a good piece of advice in my life and I feel I have been left to my own devices since a young age. I am currently 22.

I have followed TRP, but it is hard to remain solid when you're holding yourself barely. Prior to this I had no issue with women. I pretend nothing effects me but God damn do I hurt on the inside. I will have to stop being a full time student due to not having insurance and needing to work full time. A set back like this has had its effects on me and caused me to slack on my workouts and overall life goals. I plan on going into the US Rangers, but I feel set back due to circumstances and it has fucked my emotions up.

I come here asking you fellow TRP friends on some advice on how to move forward in life when you lack good guidance, finances, and motivation. What are some methods I can use to try and better myself

Damn does this feel good to just write down. I don't want any pitty just true advice that I have never been given in my life