I haven't slept well since the pill and I'm finally admitting that fact to myself. I have given the pill my A-game and had amazing results but I've sacrificed a lot of my own mental health to do so. I jumped right into the game and flipped like a light switch.

I've had long nights. But I've gotten financial stability and freedom because of it. I've missed out on social opportunities and stayed up late to meet my quotas at the gym. I look amazing. I lost tons of weight.

I didn't realize how restless I was until I took some Melatonin from a friend. 3mg. Not only did I sleep. I woke up at a reasonable hour feeling refreshed. That only happens if I oversleep. So I've been taking Melatonin for a week now. I feel great but Melatonin is a hormone so I can't rely on it or it's going to fuck me up.

I think it's stress related. I think I've really burnt the candle out so to speak. I meditate and have mandatory down time. I also have a mandatory free day on Sunday where I relax and do anything I want with no obligations. I don't know what else I could do to ease up.

TL;DR: Resltess without taking medicine. I eat very well. I exercise religiously. I meditate. I've caught back up from the nights I had to stay up. But I'm still restless and stressed and I now realize this is affecting other areas of my life.