Brothers in truth, pontificate with me on the allure of hatred, punishment, anger, manipulation, and power.

Am I alone in taking great pleasure in the "negative" aspects of Game? I often find myself reminiscing on the things I disapproved of or disliked about my LTR and the beginning of our relationship just to fuel myself to conjure up new and better ways to make her feel shame.

I do this to better our relationship, to strengthen her bond to me, to create the illusion (or accentuate the reality) that she is not worthy.

I do this in both subtle and overt ways, depending on mood and severity of her offense. An example would be suggesting with full plausible deniability that I am uninterested in a future with her based upon her past mistakes (admittedly few and minor).

I've struggled in the past with overdoing this side of things, resulting in crushed exes that berated themselves constantly (a form of victim mindset that allowed them to wallow in self pity instead of improve).

As I learned to perfect the timing and intensity of these assaults I saw how devastatingly effective they were at curbing a woman's entitlement issues. But my ego became engorged at the ease of which I could turn the tides using her own self doubt.

I sometimes wonder whether this is done out of anger due to learning unsavory truths about my beloved toy, and how different I thought she was compared to what she told me unknowingly through her remarks and actions. In reality, compared to the majority of men here, I feel like an imposter: I never had anywhere close to the horrible experiences some of you have had, never had a woman betray my trust to my face like you have in such horrible ways. And yet, I am constantly drawn to the boundaries of redpill wisdom and Game.

Self improvement, increasing your SMV- It is the cornerstone of TRP. I believe in this wholeheartedly, but I definitely prefer to do this psychologically with my females, letting their perceived SMV plummet in relation to mine by manipulating their self worth. I lift because I enjoy it.

Before anyone calls me bitter, that is most likely true. But don't let that discredit my message or distract from the questions. More than bitterness, I simply enjoy fucking with them and the positive (and diverse) changes that brings to any relationship. Maybe I'm just bored, or spoiled, or evil.

Is this a strength of awareness about psychological Game (redundant)? Or is this a weakness of relishing in the joys of the anger phase by RP standards?

Yours truly