Hello fellow rpers, this is a rather new thought but it just came to my mind an hour ago.

EDIT: Sorry this wasn't meant be such a long post. Also sorry for any mistakes within this, english is only my second language.

Lets start this with some info about me.

I'm 18, have been following rp ever since I was 15. I used to be a huge beta for the biggest part of my life until one day I was talking to a friend I met through gaming (which I still enjoy a lot nowadays even though uni really takes most of my spare time off me) about women and after ranting about my impossibility to get women he said to me: 'Boy you just don't have any game.' That day I decided to look up everything I could find out about game and I got into /r/seduction. Some time later, through a post there I found trp. First post I read was 'Five stages of trp' (go read it if you haven't) which really just confused me a lot. So I decided that trp is probably just a really weird place and refrained from visiting it.

At one point some time later for some reason trp popped back into my mind (just like that song you hear once and then after a week your mind tells you: listen to this again it's fucking amazing) and I decided to give it a second shot.

From there I really indulged myself deeply in the rp philosophy, starting to improve myself in different aspects. Just a month later I managed to score with some random chick at a house party. And it was amazing. The rush you get when you manage to finally get women after you haven't been able for your entire life is amazing, I'd be beta for another 10 years just to get that feeling again. And suddenly the girls in my school started noticing me, talking about me between them.

Time has passed and now I've been on the rp journey for quiet some time and I gotta say I'm nowhere near the end (if one can say there truly is a final state of trp, 'end game'). Nowadays I get lots of attention from women, I'm in a happy relationship with a gf who truly is an angel to me and here we come to the issue at hand.

Last weekend I was at a club with my male friends talking to them when I noticed these 2 HB8 nearly staring at me. Just one second earlier I was talking to two girls, one of which I know through my gf, the other being a friend of hers who I haven't seen before, who ironically complimented me on my face (have never been told that before) out of the blue. So they leave and I turn to the two girls sitting next to me and I ask them: why are you staring at me? Conversation follows and I can tell that the hotter of the two likes me (lets call her A). After sharing a joint with my friends while holding conversation with the girls I tell them: 'Do you have anything to drink? I swear my mouth is drier than the sahara.' Suddenly A tells me: Oh we were going to buy drinks anyway what do you want? Now I gotta say I have never been offered a drink before, especially not from women and I asked for her a beer. Minutes later she returns with a free beer and I have to admit it really pushed my confidence a whole notch up. Evening continues and I escalate lightly bearing in mind that I'm in a happy relationship (who doesn't like options though) and then we leave. Me and my friends get into our train home and the girl even goes so far as telling her friend to stay in the train for longer even though they would have had to get off already. Before I can ask for a # though her friend forces her to get out at the next station (which I didn't mind too much since I was going to my gf's house anyway).

Oh well whatever I tell myself and forget about it. Now yesterday I logged onto facebook and I see a friend request from a girl I didn't immediately recognize. Turns out it was girl A who had found me through the event. I start texting her a little bit, not answering too much/often since I'm pretty busy with uni anyway. I find out as well that she's 'semi-famous' on instagram having 10k+ followers and lots of orbiters telling her how pretty she is under every picture. Now after I've texted her again today she read the message but didnt reply which I didn't mind too much. But for some reason it kinda bothered me and I texted my gf and a really close female friend whom I had agreed to meet later with, but both of them not answering me until few hours later.

The real issue now: For some reason after some time I start to feel really shit, just playing some videogame for 1 h+ until I call my gf who then immediately replies as I only call her when things are urgent. Now I'm on my way to her house as I know that this will ease my mind fully.

The thought I had was: 'Am I addicted to validation? And considering I probably am, trp, how do I train my mind so things like this won't happen anymore?

I'm sorry this turned out to be such a long post and if anything seems confusing, I'm just really speaking my mind right now so sorry about that.

Thank you for your responses

Always stay improving!

THT